i am not sure what to do next. you left me soo broken inside. why?why must you do this to me? is this my fault? i want to know...and i wanna know still till now...all this while i had no chance at all? why now? why am i not given a chance? why am i so useless?...am i that ugly? am i not good enough for you? what did i do wrong to deserve this?i give my all, everything just for you...now, im left with nothing.you reduced my heart into tears.im in pain...im tormented...i can't do it. its bleeding...my heart...you will never know...

i just can't breathe at times....i felt soo tired...i just can't forget about you...

you are still in my mind.whatever and wherenever.where are you?...pls i really need you terribly...i miss those times...the songs we shared,the life we shared and the memories we held on to.i beg you...pls don't leave me. why?...everyday i prayed for you...nvr did i tink about myself....and now you left me just like that....

am i in your shoes now?are you feeling glad?... is it really to clear those doubts? are you happy with what you did?did you tink about me at all?....im left alone here with nothing...

i never blame you....do you still like him?...i sense that...don't you know what i dreamt about theres always a msg behind it....there is...

do you feel my love all this while?..are all those fake hopes and lies?... why am i soo bad in my love life?....not even a chance, a glace look at the back and even a happiness in my life...

i've been trying to safe myself...trying to forget about you,forcing myself to be happy...Still, deep inside, the hurt is deep....soo deep.Day by day, i realise the hurt gets deeper than ever.i'm just so tired. i grow weaker day by day...i know i still loved you...i know that....i miss your love...now....

i always thought that im strong...but im wrong.im weak. even when i look strong on the outside...you will nvr know how in pain i am in...i tried to harden this heart of mine...but the pains gets worst...

i tried to swallow those pains...but it ended with tears within me...

my life has changed totally.because of you, i studied hard to pass my exams...because of you i changed my ways, because of you i changed the way i wear...everything...now that you left,i am lost now...

you rejected me so easily and you might say that this is life and that everybody has to go through all this...Please listen to the voices in my heart, if you were to be me...hw would you feel?...you can nvr feel hw painful it is....if i can just take your hand and feel my heartbeat....

i never hate you, cux i know that i made the right choice. people might say this and that about you...but i still believed the way you are...i still wants to protect you...i still do,...i just can't bring myself into leaving you...i can't.

people might say that what meant to be urs are urs and nt is not...that is soo selfish...is love that selfish...when you give others your love, you gets nothing back in return....WHY?!must it be me the one who always gets hurt.why is the world so cruel to me? i never felt being loved by anyone...why?!...if this happens...why some were given a chance while i had none? why is there such ting as love?...why must i give my love when im nt given any at all...why!why!...whY!>...fucking life i had....no reasons to live for!

when i walk home home alone, those memories began to appear...they day i loved you till now...those memories is still there...

i gave my all and this is what i get...

i see other people happiness...when i look back at mine. i realised i had none...

it hurts alot when i see you running away for me...am i that ugly...a monster to be scared of...

please don't do this to me anymore...oh god almighty, i had suffer enough from the fate you given me...

now, when im writing this posts, i know its useless and that i will never be able to bring you back...i admit that i miss you.i need you,please don't leave me...don't runaway....cux i still oved you...

today i poured my heart,souls and pain here...and im still trying to recover them

i have failed to recover them so far...

i love you

i still love you

somebody help me

what should i do now

im so lonely now

such pain

heartbroken....

Quotes frm songs.

Sometimes i cry so hard from pleading,

so sick and tired of all of all the needless beating.

- My Chemical Romance "I don't love you"

I won't explain Or say I'm sorry

I'm unashamed,

I'm gonna show my scar.

- My Chemical Romance "Welcome to the black parade"

Made my mistakes, let you down...

And I can't... I can't hold on for too long...

Ran my whole life in the ground...

And I can't... I can't get up when you're gone...

- Yellowcard " Only one"

It's hard to deal with the pain of losin' you every where I go

But I'm doin' it

It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone

Still harder

Gettin' up, gettin' dressed, livin' with this regret, but I know

If I could do it over

I would trade, give away, all the words that I saved in my heart that I left unspoken

- Rascal Flatts "What Hurts The Most"

Some days I feel broke inside but I won't admit

Sometimes I just wanna hide 'cause it's you I miss

And it's so hard to say goodbye

- Christina Aguilera "Hurt"

It's really good to hear your voice say my name

It sounds so sweet

Coming from the lips of an angel

Hearing those words it makes me weak

Now today never wanna say goodbye

But girl you make it hard to be faithful

With the lips of an angel

-Hinder "Lips Of An Angel"

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend

Somewhere along in the bitterness and

I would have stayed up with you all night

Had I known how to save a life

-Fray "How To Save A Life"

I'm not like all my friends who keep calling up the boys, I'm so shy

But I don't wanna be into you

If you don't treat me the right way

See I can only start seeing you

If you can make my heart feel safe

-Vanessa Hudgens "Say OK"

When I think of what I have, and this chance I nearly lost,

I cant help but break down, and cry.

-Craig David "Unbelievable"

I try not to think

About the pain I feel inside

Did you know you used to be My hero?

All the days You spent with me

Now seem so far away

And it feels like you don't Care anymore

-Simple Plan "Perfect"

The littlest things that take me there

I know it sounds lame but it’s so true

I know it’s not right but it seems unfair

That thing’s are reminding me of you

Sometimes I wish we could just pretend

Even if only for one weekend

So come on

Tell me

Is this the end?

-Lily Allen "Littlest Things"

one.
listen.
hold still.
dad.
mom.
let it go.
don't be.
laugh.
talk to someone.
touch.
breathe.
cry.
accept.
forgive.
not enough.
fear.
release.
jump.
have faith.
god.
pain.
silence.
fate.
reasons.
wrong.
dreams.
lost
hope
lies
deceive
when and why
save a life?
love....
remember....


thousand knives piercing through them...
my my...
how does it feel?...

So cold on the inner side, like a permanent ice.so broken in the corner are meant for silence.shh...is there any heartbeat.nahs.it has silence itself from torture of its fragile self. soo fragile and so it is. no debates and no voices can ever help to move them.no whispers and even slightest of touches can do amends, and so it is....and so it will... im soo tired nw - nazri