hey's im back to blogging....

kinda busy with lots of thingy...

im still working fer the zoo, hmm its not everyday but on weekends...haa at least earning some money honey!...

i had bad luck....pure bad luck...hmm...

i just realise it...

i had bad luck in my love life, i lost my mp3 and had to use my mum's...even sold my mum's and bought a new one, ' with her permission of course. lost my birthday's voucher and got scolded,had my slippers stolen, had friends leaving me, i entered to a course and school where's there not even a kranjian, my school is further apart from my friends, had my spectacle broke, had fractured my ankle recently and because of that, i had to go xrays and some surgery procedures, my right ankle is soo far bigger than my left ankle...omg, i cannot play sports for about a month at least...even in working, i lost 145 in my counter....

hmm, what has happened to me...

i sometimes wondered and looked back at my life recently. i realised i had soo much too offer.... i want to change the lifes of people, to make people think that the world had soo much too offer...the chance to live on for the least...

recently i watched this tv show in MTV, its about we ppl....hmm..all about expressing yourself....thats the way if u want to suceed.hmm..i sensed that i had something inside me that is waiting to come out for so long...wad is that?...i want to express myself and suceed.

i always wanted my prayers to answered but i had always done soo much wrong things to god...
im really ashamed of myself...just look at myself...ooh god...im so pathetic...

my destiny is to be decided by me.i want to change the life of others....

i know my fate in love has always been bad, so no point for me to fall in love..

i know my faith in love has gone forever....so lets not think about love...

i know i must do something about this and not give up....hmm, maybe sometimes let nature runs its own course is betta.

what can i do to be a betta guy,...to see and not jump into conclusions easily. to have a happy family and friends with him, to be happy and not hold grudges, to not forget GOD

last night, i realised something...i could not sleep till about 3 plus just thinking about it,

what is the biggest regrets in my life...

i had soo much regrets...

soo much...

i regretted for not cherishing my family, cousins and friends as i seemed to have let time goes its own way....

i regretted for not being able to show my love...for the person i love recently....but got rejected...i regretted for hating her and now i hate myself...whats the point... and now the feeling of missing somebody really hurts me...is there's such thing as one chance... so cherishing love is important....

sometimes its just betta to keep quiet and let pain be felt by your ownself...cux i don't want people to feel that they owns me something...i never want anyone to felt worried for me especially my mum, my parents...

sometimes problem is good to be shared, matters of the heart and others....

i need a listening ear...so far i had none the best...thats why i kept mostly everything to myself....

how can i change my life...

with soo many regrets...

let this be a lesson to me...

where is the love?

where is the real nazri?

where are you? deep within you?

time to express your feelings to others?

time to be yourself?

where is all the spirits and will?

dude!,...come back to reality...

this is life...cherish it while you can...colour it with rainbows...
and not disgust it...