Hey ya's, yea time to update

yupx2, soo many things to speak bout'....yet its unspoken

i still cannot find the suitable jobs...nah, i nvr regret quiting ntuc...but the thing is my advise to you people, please feel be content with the jobs that u had now...cux its soo difficult to find jobs nowadaes...

patience though...

this week hmm, went out with zhenguang,yenle,steffi to bugis.haha. crazy time there.omg. haha especially the time when we went up all the way to the top floor of the national library..haha...den went down like mad people...my god, that was one of the memorable moment...ohh yah!, i was soo happy that baked rice did not content my stomach, i want pizzas! i want more..eat more...Weird it is, but atually i wanna lose weight!...

hmm speaking bout losing weight, the tingy key is to loose weight and eat less during dinner with good diets...hmm...but if you continue to train ur strength and endurance, u gotta need ur fats to turn into muscles rite?..so is it losing weight or not losing one....but the doctors sae, loose weight! omg! im so thin!..hw?..

maybe i gotta eat and exercise in the same time, wah soo difficult

haha, i gonna die

hmm

ive learnt something about myself...
haha weird.one
i have a face hu neither shows sadness or happiness
satisfy or unsatisfy. haha. now thats weird...
im always a smiley person rite...
but that what the agent told me!...
somemore agent are those ppl who knows how to deal ppl...and they are trained to see ppl...
hmm, me being an agent in the future..nahs...i wan a betta future...

i think i gonna spend lesser nowadaes....i gonna need to save up. fer my driving license at the end of the year and i wanna buy that car...that toyota celica!..haha and i wanna pimp it up!..
wah wad imagination...indeed it is...

hmm, i tink one of these days i gonna chill and wen jogging and have fun fer awhile...o'lvel results is coming out earlier this yr, bout 5th of february....hmm anyone wanna went jogging with me...i promise i will have the same pace as you...cux even my stamina had drop lots...? so anyone?

Hmm, im like a person who likes to keep everything to himself...

Sometimes sharing is a betrayal...

Betrayal that causes your hopes despite disguises...

I've been wanting to meet you someday...

someday i hope...

i really miss those smiles...

where are you now...

expressing myself has always been a big problem to me...

if i can just kneel down now and shout my lungs out...saying

i love you...

if i can just stay afloat at the never-ending sea...shouting fer help...

impossible...

yesterday, i had the starangest dream of my life...very strange...yet its still at the back of my mind...

i dreamt of a gift...a gift of a carved heart-shaped one dollar coin...it was given to me...by someone...

if it really happens...what more priceless can it be...never will i replace it with anitin from e world...

anyways,

i've learnt somethin about me that i can nvr share it with anyone...im one...the only one...its a god gift...but i treat it as the best gift...im glad to know that...with such high responsibilities...only me and my second sis had this ability...with the positive signs on me...

shh...no more..

its a secret...

anyone heard this?...its a nice sms given by a gd fren of mine...

1+1=2 eyes searching 4 u...

4+1= 5 senses mising u...

12+12=24 hrs thinkin bout u..

3+4=7 days in a week i care about u...

1+11=12 months i pray 4 u...

nice isn't it...

"i might be quiet all the time but nvr u know that my mind is always with u, i might be quiet all the time but nvr u will know that i always care about you, missing you and wondering where are you... i might be quiet becux thats the only way i can ask god fer your safety, hoping that i'll be able to meet you someday, someplace and somewhere...watever the time is...

time never ends"

Hmm

im sneezing uncontrollably now...
omg.

today, i had a soccer match in bishan park
i played fer my brother in law team...
hmm we versus the veterans...those who use to play fer the s-league..

im kinda glad we won the match...
still im terribly upset..why?
because i start getting tired in on merely 15 mins of the game..
even though i completed the 90 mins game..i felt abit satisfied...
by e way...
tis indian guy...the opposition captain went to approach me...

he said" boy, you're a very good and strong tackler har"...
den he added " but u must be more confident with the ball then u will be a betta player"
hmm i learned wuite a lot from him...i managed to control the game nw...

i learned that i must be patient and not to be too "kanchong"
haa!...a good day...sure is

wen back home...felt so tired...and running nose started...
wen to sleep...temp rises...omg...
im having a flu again!

hmm,...

its so late now

i cannot sleep...so wen online just to update this blog

hmm, i hope i gets my new job as soon as possible

money!!!i need those...to shop! fill up my closet

fer nw..
nthin to update lars..

anitin just call me...if u ppl gt nthin to do..
cux im darn bored at home

till then
buaix!

2nd of january 2007

i watch soccer from 1 to 3...then
i tried to have my sleep but i just can't..
the pain at my shoulder, it appeared soo sudenlly...
soo in the end, i did not sleep till the next day 12pm..
my dad bought me to a chinese acupunchture..at gombak
its nt that i need acupunchture but my back really hurts...
i can't even walk properly...
he checked and said i had overwork and this cause my muscle and joint problems...
he then added, ' your ligaments has problems..."....
and soo...he give me a one hell of a massage....soo painfull...
but i think its worth it....
i did recover fast though...
i then slept...and just slack at home
doing nothing but watching tvs and mtvs...

whatever you are now...i hope you are fine...

3rd of january 2007

i woke up early in the morning...about six...
i couldn't sleep...
so i had my prayers and breakfast...
watch some dvds, the show bedazzled and eragon...
then i wen to school, just to take my good progress award...
hah! i just wear my home clothes, shorts and a slippers...
gosh im gettin lazier...
manage to enter the school without any problems...
lols, cute little sec ones..
wen to the office and bad news..its nt there yet...but the date
states its suppose to be there by the 28th of december...
gosh im dissapointed...
i just walk away and went to lot 1 alone...had a short trip there...
bought nthin...so just went home...
i felt soo tired now...
soo weak...
my god what has happen to my body...
i must buck up...
training starts soon...

basically today i really did three proper things, miss you, miss you and just missing you...

28th of december 2006

My god, i really miss you alot.2morrow is my last day of work.
Finally, after all those troubles...sufferings and tortures
i wonder where are you now...

29th of december 2006

Im very sorry...why?
because i have failed to take care of myself
i've overwork and now i am sick again
i'm having a terrible cold....it is just soo cold now..

if only you were here...

30th of december 2006

I must really wonder...
my thought are always with you but are yours with me?..
i only want you to be happy but i nvr want you into making me happy....
i nvr you want to force ur'self...
i just want you to be happy...

2day, all i do is just lay on my bed and watch tv the whole day
i'm so bored..
so i did my reflection of the yr 2006...
one ting fer sure...
it has been a rollercoaster ride...

31th of december 2006..

the last day of the yr...
447 days...me waiting fer you...
6 days of empty heart..
my god what has happened?...
why now?
why?...

New Year Resolution
- to have closer ties with family and friends..
- to improve every aspect of my attitude
- to cherish every souls i've met
- to have my goals ticked!
* to love you and only you...

1st of january 2007

i'm bored at home...
while people are working here i am rotting at home...
2morrow i shall start my sporting life..
i gonna do everything myself,...
i must do it
i can do it
so...
just do it!

your always here in my heart...
wherenever you are...i'm always here...
i miss you soo badly,
i miss the time...